be careful what you wish for

be careful what you wish for

i wanted
more action
more fun
more drama
more ups
more downs
more love
more laughter
more friends
more fiends
more drinks
more drugs
more party
more stories
more sound
more beat


something to believe in.

more than ever

more than ever

1 am in my mom's kitchen

the window's open,

still smoky inside.

a mango i plan to eat for breakfast lies next to me.

a pack of wild rice i plan to take back with me to tokyo too.

moving more than ever,

still stuck.

i'm making preparations for so many small things

but not for myself.

i feel like it's easy to move your body from place to place.

but i think i lost my mind somewhere,

maybe at the airport in shanghai.

changes

changes

On March 11 the biggest earthquake of the century hit Japan and left a the whole country in horror. I, carrying a suitcase packed for not more than 3 days, left for Osaka and  then Germany. All my beloved friends scattered to the four winds: some still in Tokyo, some went to south Japan and some back in their home countries. 

Being in Germany is a huge cure for the soul. No need to run here, but too much time leaves no time to rest your mind. So now, 3 days before I have to take my flight back to Tokyo I still haven't decided on whether to stay or take another year off and stay in Berlin, doing an internship and start school next April. On the one hand I don't want to waste one year on the other hand the radiation levels around Japan are still out of control and I'm very worried about myself and all my friends, who are still in Tokyo.

It's hard to say where we all gonna end up. But all that made me really realize how much I love this country, how much I love it's people and how much I want to go back to how we were before. But for now there are decisions to be made. And I have only 3 days left.

Katie